::: Saturday, July 06, 2002 :::
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I haven't slept yet. Rhome and Roy just left. We went out and had dinner last night in Don Henrico's Ermita, and well, it seems everything's back to normal. We goofed around, we acted like little kids, we had no inhibitions, we bantered and exchanged verbal ramparts - like good old days.
The only difference? I don't trust him. I realized I've lost whatever respect I had for him, and although I still consider him a friend and I sure still think it's fun having him around, I don't think I'd go to great lengths just so I'd see him or meet him and have fun times with him again. Pag andyan, andyan. Pag wala, wala.
Oh, and I still don't buy majority of his - to use the term loosely - "explanations." The gravest insults are those done to someone's intelligence.
This is total apathy. And I like it.
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Chel at 7/06/2002 04:24:00 PM | |
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::: Thursday, July 04, 2002 :::
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I'm kinda pissed. I tried to borrow my dad's car for tomorrow night and he refused.
I'm almost 24. He GAVE my kid brother, who's 18 years old, a car last year. So unfair.
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Chel at 7/04/2002 09:47:00 PM | |
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Chel at 7/04/2002 06:13:00 AM | |
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New favorite person: Judith Albano.
She's a CD (Creative Director) of Publicis-AMA, an advertising agency, whom I've been emailing with the last few weeks. She's eerily so much like me - it's like staring at what I'll become ten years from now.
I love her. :)
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Chel at 7/04/2002 06:13:00 AM | |
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::: Tuesday, July 02, 2002 :::
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You know what, I don't care. Maybe he just honestly made a mistake, maybe he gave me bullshit, but whatever really happened, I should stop caring - I have to move on.
My life is beautiful. With or without him.
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Chel at 7/02/2002 09:38:00 PM | |
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I'm trying to play a game that whatever I'd do, I'd end up losing anyway.
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Chel at 7/02/2002 09:18:00 AM | |
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You know why I find it hard to get over this?
I don't buy his explanation. I mean one moment he was so serious about me, and then after three days, he'd realize he doesn't have romantic feelings for me?
Sabihin nang denial to, but that's just plain bull.
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Chel at 7/02/2002 09:16:00 AM | |
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Reasons why Rhome was stupid according to Benicio:
1. He shoudnt have started a relationship with me when he wasnt sure ESPECIALLY since we were bestfriends
2. he shouldnt have jumped from one relationship to the next like he was shopping
3. the premise na he can tell me everything without being hurt
4. he thinks nothing changed
He's the nth person who asked me if I'm sure kaibigan ko talaga si Rhome.
Darn.
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Chel at 7/02/2002 09:09:00 AM | |
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double post again :(
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Chel at 7/02/2002 05:46:00 AM | |
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Neuro was hell this morning.
We still discussed our patient with choreic movements, and the debate was on infarct versus bleed as the cause of the possible stroke he's had. It was very in-depth - we even touched on the CSF, had a surprise "review" on the basics (which, of course, we didn't anymore remember, and wrapped up with Dr. Punsalan stressing his point through logic.
Yes, logic. As in Philo 1.
Life is fair. Lahat kami na-boljak.
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Chel at 7/02/2002 05:46:00 AM | |
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::: Monday, July 01, 2002 :::
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My eyes are now open.
Again, life is beautiful.
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Chel at 7/01/2002 09:26:00 AM | |
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never put yourself in a situation where youre not sure where you stand in a persons life. never assume, never expect, so that if they drop you, you have enough strength to move on.
the older we get, the more foolish we become.
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Chel at 7/01/2002 08:57:00 AM | |
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Rhome, Rhome, Rhome...kakasawa na.
Life is beautiful. And it will be more beautiful.
Next topic. :)
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Chel at 7/01/2002 05:39:00 AM | |
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And I'm ok with that. :)
Imagine what 24 hours can do.
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Chel at 7/01/2002 05:38:00 AM | |
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::: Sunday, June 30, 2002 :::
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This is a day of realizations: Contrary to what everybody thinks, I am not in-love with Rhome. I was just jealous because I've always been sort of the girl in his life. The closest girl-space-friend. And now, the big change has happened.
He has me on a pedestal, Heidi in his arms.
I'd just have to be content with that.
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Chel at 6/30/2002 11:58:00 PM | |
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I think I might have to keep my distance from them for a while.
I should save myself.
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Chel at 6/30/2002 01:58:00 AM | |
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